Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Zombie Dream

So I woke up last night at about 2:30 in the morning freaking out from a dream I had just woken up from and couldn't fall back asleep till at least 4am.  It was really weird so I figured why not write it out and put it on here.  So here you go, last night's freaky zombie nightmare:


We had to constantly keep moving.  Even if we found a safe place we couldn’t stay for long.  The safest plan was to keep moving.  Keep finding food, and keep finding shelter.
            We tried to stick to suburban areas.  Rural was ideal for seclusion but suburban would have the most supplies that would could carry and take with us.  We never went near the city…for obvious reasons.  For the first time in a long time our group had maintained its number.  The five of us, Eric and I, Nancy, Maggie our sort of leader and her son Ted.  We had been together for about 3 weeks now.
            Nancy was our newest addition.  We had found her wandering on her own.  She had done a fairly decent job of surviving on her own considering she was in her late 40’s.  But she was lean and tall with short chin length black hair that she parted down the middle. 
            This third week however was the beginning of tension in the group, namely between Maggie and Nancy. 
            We were in Nancy’s home suburb, which proved to be extremely helpful, as she had kept her house running as much as she possibly could.  She had lots of stored water and nonperishable foods and she was willing to allow us to stay with her.
            But around this third week Maggie said it was about time they packed up and should move again, and offered to Nancy that she should join us.  But Nancy refused.  She then explained why she was still here.
            Before the outbreak of zombies began she had lived here with her husband now that their two children were grown and in college out on their own.  Her husband had been bitten in one of the first out breaks.  No one fully understood what was going on in the beginning so she thought he was just sick but as things got worse they both knew it was not going to end well.
            Her husband had forced her to lock him in the garage and when became what they both knew he inevitably would she was to take his hunting rifle from their shed and end it.   But once that time came and Nancy had the rifle in her hand she found that she couldn’t do it.  Her hand shook too much and her vision blurred with tears and she simply opened the garage door from inside the house and let him go.
            She was determined not to falter this time.  And should would not leave this house before she accomplished this task. 
            Maggie tried to explain to her that it was a bad idea, that he could be miles away by now, or someone else could have already taken care of him, but Nancy refused to listen.  She said she knew he was still around…she could feel it.  I mean I thought she was crazy, but Maggie seemed to give up convincing her after that.
            We waited around for another week in hopes of convincing Nancy to come with us, till one night we didn’t have to wait anymore.
            We all slept together on the living room floor, it was safer to stay together in groups, we all heard it.  I shot up and I could feel the others were awake too.  Maggie slowly sat up and looked around.  We all had the same thought, Nancy wasn’t here.
            We moved silently through the house our weapons at the ready.  We tiptoed through the kitchen to the door that lead through to the garage.
            The door to the outside was coming down and we all saw two figures in the garage.  Nancy with her rifle, and what could only be assumed was Nancy’s husband.
            We all stood in silence waiting for what was going to come next.  Nancy was the closest to him, he began his labored uneven walk to her arms outstretched and terrible gurgling noises coming from his unhinged jaw, eye’s milky white and dead.
            Nancy held the rifle at the read with a sure arm tears streaking down her cheeks.  And then it happened.  She lowered the rifle when he was only arms length away.  She whispered his name, Scott, and her eyes glazed over not seeing the monster but the man she had loved.  His hands came around her shoulders and she looked up into his face as if she were expecting a kiss, the gun discarded and forgotten on the floor.  She whispered his name one last time, as if she were saying a prayer and then his mouth bit deep into her cheek still holding her up right.
            Then there was a gun shot and to tore my gaze away from the gruesome scene, to see Maggie, arm outstretched, pistol in hand smoking.
            Nancy had dropped to the ground along with her husband but unlike his motionless corpse, she was twitching and writhing on the ground, making the most terrible noises I had ever heard in my life.  I couldn’t tell if she was sobbing and screaming…or laughing.  A large pool of blood was beginning to form around her head and neck.
            There was another shot from the pistol and she was motionless.  The dark garage was silent.  Then Maggie said, “Gather what you can, I want to be out of here in an hour.  The sound of the gun will have attracted visitors.”  She turned away from the garage without a second glance.
            The pool of blood from Nancy’s head was still growing as I looked away.  My entire body felt numb and I began packing without really thinking about my actions.
Our party was down to four, again.


Tuesday, June 4, 2013

What keeps us awake at night may kill us


Sometimes I have nightmares
not of raging beasts
and savage demons
But of peaceful days
long since gone
where your face holds no shadows
they have not yet formed
and you smile at me
and I have no fear of that smile
it brings no pain
not yet
and you touch my skin
and kiss my lips
Yet I wake up
with tears on my cheeks
and a pain in my heart
as if another portion of it
has died and crumbled away
and I must remember again
the shadows and ghosts
that have taken your place there.
Sometimes I think
those are worse
than any horror
or beast
my mind can  conjure