My New Year.

Hey everybody!
SO! A LOT of my life will be changing with the start of 2014.  AND, I'd be honored to share every step of the way with all of you! 
First off I'll tell you where I am in my life right now.  
I am no longer going to school at Millikin University.  I returned home December 20th and will be continuing my sophomore year of college while living at home and going to Moraine Valley Community College to finish my associates degree hopefully in a year.  
Now let me explain why.  Millikin University is a great school.  I loved some of the teachers and the people I got to work with, but it just wasn't for me.  I know that sounds crazy and ya know it kinda is, but it just wasn't for me and I could feel it in everything I did.  
As someone who has lived her whole life down the street from the city of Chicago being in the middle of nowhere was almost literally sucking the life out of me.  Also I was studying Theatre which at this point in my life or simply just at Millikin wasn't for me.  I just felt so unhappy.  I was so far away from anyone who loved me and just felt so alone.  
Have you ever been driving somewhere and you're supposed to turn on a specific street but you realize you have NO idea if you're supposed to turn right or left so at the last minute you make a split second decision and turn.  And as you are driving in that direction you slowly become more and more certain you are driving in the wrong direction? 
That's exactly what it felt like. 
So 2014 is me making my U turn. 
They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.  And I realized that I was so unhappy at Millikin and trying to just stay there and hope things got better was insanity.  The nights of panic attacks, self doubt, and just sheer loneliness were big warning signs.  So coming home, working, being around family, friends, and the city is my change in hopes of making myself feel whole again.  Going back to where I knew who I was and working from there.
So this is where I'm at.  I'm trying to live better, treating my body well with yoga, eating right and getting out more.  Read more, write more, set goals, work harder, take more chances, the whole works.  Now I'm not saying I do this an SNAP I'm a happier me, but it's the start of a long process.  The journey of a million miles begins with a single step, right?
And with these new goals, one of them is revamping this blog.  There's going to be an influx of book reviews, seeing as that was the originally for, and hopefully more poetry mixed with short stories of this new year.  So if you've been enjoying with you see so far PLEASE continue to read on, share with your friends, send me feedback!
For anyone else who has felt lost from both the world and yourself.  This is my way of saying. I'm there, and if you are too, well you're not alone. We don't have to be.
Hope you all enjoy the holidays, and please stay tuned for my new year.